I do not wish to dwell on the bittersweet past because this would make me suffer. The suffering is more than physical pain. It goes deep to the centrality of my whole being, and my soul cries from its depths. It is then that today loses its luster and tomorrow means nothing because it is shorn of its hope and promises. It is a compulsion that cannot be denied. I have to express myself to loosen the tightness that is about to explode. My heart is in pain! But I am alright, for the heart seeks its own refuge when it is deeply hurt--yes, to deaden its agony.
It was growing so dark that I have to stop reading but as soon as I put the book down, I began to feel the loneliness and emptiness again. There are times that I want to go somewhere far, so far that no one will have a single clue about me. I wish to be invincible so that no one can hurt me intentionally. But I must be strong despite this life's difficulties. But even just for once I want to be held by someone stronger. When I think about this things, in an instant I began to remember memories from my past. Memories that is forever imprinted in my whole being. Memories that I didn't wishes to happen but it did.
When you have so much pain and hate, you begin to destroy yourself without thinking. Yeah, I've been there. And sometimes, I get tired of this miserable existence.
I admire those people who never get tired of loving me despite my annoying attitude. I thank them for always understanding and loving me. Particularly, my mom.
I love you guys.. :)
It was growing so dark that I have to stop reading but as soon as I put the book down, I began to feel the loneliness and emptiness again. There are times that I want to go somewhere far, so far that no one will have a single clue about me. I wish to be invincible so that no one can hurt me intentionally. But I must be strong despite this life's difficulties. But even just for once I want to be held by someone stronger. When I think about this things, in an instant I began to remember memories from my past. Memories that is forever imprinted in my whole being. Memories that I didn't wishes to happen but it did.
When you have so much pain and hate, you begin to destroy yourself without thinking. Yeah, I've been there. And sometimes, I get tired of this miserable existence.
I admire those people who never get tired of loving me despite my annoying attitude. I thank them for always understanding and loving me. Particularly, my mom.
I love you guys.. :)
